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I've shared this in smaller settings but writing it in my LJ feels big: I'm actively looking into adoption.
I've wanted to be a mom for a long time now and it feels like I'm always waiting for something - a partner, the sale of my home in FL, a move back to NY - something. But there will always be something and last weekend with my sister & nephew sealed my resolve to do it when it's right for me rather than when other people think it's right for me.
This week I spent a lot of time thinking about how I want to record this journey and I decided to create a separate journal:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
project_mom. (Lame, I know, but everything else I came up with was super sappy.) The choice to set up a separate journal is primarily so I can share it with friends and family who aren't part of my fannish world (and who I'd prefer don't visit this journal). I also think it will be nice, if this works out as I hope, to someday share the journal with my child she (or he) knows how much they were wanted.
I wrote a little bit more about the decision and where I'm at in the process here. Please feel free to friend the journal if you're interested in taking this trip with me. All entries will be unlocked. (There's a handful of you who damn well better friend me there. You know who you are. :) )
So that's it! I'm very excited and reminding myself that it's going to take a long time to see this through. It's possible, though, given the 18mos- 2yr time frame, that right now, somewhere in the world, there's a child about to be born who will someday call me mom.
I've wanted to be a mom for a long time now and it feels like I'm always waiting for something - a partner, the sale of my home in FL, a move back to NY - something. But there will always be something and last weekend with my sister & nephew sealed my resolve to do it when it's right for me rather than when other people think it's right for me.
This week I spent a lot of time thinking about how I want to record this journey and I decided to create a separate journal:
project_mom. (Lame, I know, but everything else I came up with was super sappy.) The choice to set up a separate journal is primarily so I can share it with friends and family who aren't part of my fannish world (and who I'd prefer don't visit this journal). I also think it will be nice, if this works out as I hope, to someday share the journal with my child she (or he) knows how much they were wanted.I wrote a little bit more about the decision and where I'm at in the process here. Please feel free to friend the journal if you're interested in taking this trip with me. All entries will be unlocked. (There's a handful of you who damn well better friend me there. You know who you are. :) )
So that's it! I'm very excited and reminding myself that it's going to take a long time to see this through. It's possible, though, given the 18mos- 2yr time frame, that right now, somewhere in the world, there's a child about to be born who will someday call me mom.